My Love

When I said that I love you, I meant every word I said. It is more than anything that you could ever imagined. I know that you'd not be able to understand this, but I am so into you. Love is a big word, but when it comes to loving you, it's bigger than any words that can explain. I wish that I could put it in words, in different languages so that can express myself in every different way. It would have been better if I could express myself by using Semitic languages which are flawless and accurate. 

When I am out of words this is what I like doing, monologging. Sometimes I am just afraid express myself too much by telling you cause I might just make you feel uncomfortable and bored. It is quite painful at time when I fail to let you know how exactly I feel about you, how much I love you and miss you. So the least I can do is writing through blogs, believing that this will be a better option than Facebook notes cause  you'd still be able to read this forever even after I die. I just don't want you to ever forget this, I have been consistent about the way I feel for you. I really meant every word I told you before and till this very moment. I might be repeating the things I said back to back but this is really coming from my heart right now.

I am aware that most guys have egos, I do but not when it comes to you. I will feel so inferior without you, I will feel inferior without your love. You're the only one who makes me more confident about myself. Without you, I am good for nothing. That's why I have told you many times that you deserve everything good in this life. I always try my best to do that, I know that I am not perfect, but I wanna be perfect for you. I will always try my best to deserve your love. You're everything to me. I devote my life, my heart and my soul for you. I really hope that you can see that from me. It's really important to me. I am sorry if this bothers your feelings sayang, if it does, don't have to read my future posts.

I realised that I couldn't live a minute without you. It's proven that even when we're apart like now, I need you to be with me all the time. We've been Skyping all the time since you left, thanks very much for your time sayang. I really appreciate it. I can't imagine what's my life going to be without you in front of me when I start working. I am always afraid the future sayang, I feel so small, I feel so inferior whenever I think about the future. I don't know what the future's going to be like. As far as I know, the only thing I want in this world is to be with you for the rest of life. I feel that my life is short, since I met you, I know that 'this is it'. You're the one for me, you're the only one I wanna be with, no one else but you.

I dream about being with you all the time, having a family with you would be so wonderful, seeing you every time I wake up is going to make my day and growing old with you will be the most beautiful journey of my life. I am deeply in love you, probably more than you would ever love me. Trust me. My Love.